I Know I Was Away

COT DAMN I AM SO TIRED.

I just had to get that out of the way.

Loyal readers, i.e. those that have not yet abandoned the blog (ahem...lucidlilith), thank you for visiting despite my sporadic updates. I haven't updated in a while for a few reasons.

First, classes. Its getting to the end of the semester and my classes are winding down which means final projects, exam studying, etcetera. You know how it goes. I have to read about 4 books and write response paragraphs and a final paper for my writing/English class. Hurray.

Also, I have been--and will be--traveling a lot. Whenever I am away from home it messes up my "schedule" for blogging and there is always something else to do which prevents me from blogging.

Of course let us not forget my full time job.

For Thanksgiving weekend I left last Wednesday and didn't come back to work until this Wednesday and I paid dearly for missing Monday and Tuesday. I had a lot to catch up on. Also, when I got back I had a research project for a client. I had to stay in the office till about 9pm last night just to make sure I would be able to finish it today.
 
I am having so much fun.

This weekend I have to finish a market analysis for my marketing class, catch up on those books for English class, take my marketing final, and oh right...I'm apartment hunting.

These next couple of weeks are going to be exciting.

Speaking of excitement, a friend got married over the holiday weekend. Alpa Chino was one of the groomsmen and had a mini-reunion with many of his college friends. Everyone stayed at the same hotel and hung out throughout the weekend, it was fun. The location of the wedding was a bit remote and I don't think that town has seen that many black people visiting. It was in that part of the country where the speed limit is actually 70mph as opposed to 55mph. Corn fields everywhere...it actually reminded me of where I went to high school in the pacific northwest.

While I was at the reception I got placed at the "future wives" table. I call it that because most of the females at the table were girlfriends/fiancees of the groomsmen. We sat there and smiled at our "boys" while they did their "man" thing joking with each other, laughing loudly and generally being the "cool kids". Occasionally a boyfriend/fiance would stop by to kiss his girlfriend/fiancee or check up on her.

You know, I used to attend weddings and roll my eyes at those couples...now I have become the person I used to mock. Its sad.

While I was at the future wives table I got asked--multiple times--if Alpa Chino and I would be next to get married. When I laughed it off, one of the girlfriends/fiancees asked why not. I told her that Alpa Chino and I still have "things" that we want to do before "settling down". She said that I could "totally" have a career and a marriage and Alpa Chino and I could do those "things" together instead.

I understand her point, but honestly I'd rather not take the chance that marriage will distract me from "things". Alpa Chino could get married next year if he wanted to because he is further along in life than I am. He'll be done with grad school in December, working full time, making those "duckets" (as he likes to say), and generally being an adult. If he never sets foot in a classroom again, he would still be able to live a comfortable life. While I am not a child by any means, I don't feel as if I am far enough in life to add a marriage to my plans right now. I too want to go to grad. school, make those "duckets", etc. Alpa Chino got to do all that without a wedding ring being involved, don't I deserve the right to do the same?

Also at the reception, I told Alpa Chino that sometimes he does nice things for people that I just cannot understand. He said that sometimes I am not nice enough (actually he used the word "mean") and he feels that one day his niceness will irritate me and my meanness will irritate him and we'll break up.

Honestly he is not THAT nice and I am not THAT mean, but there are certain things he does that I would probably not do. For example, one day we were at the train station and he saw a woman struggling with the card turnstiles, so he used his metro card to help her cross the barriers. I also saw that woman, but I was focused on getting to the train and did not stop to help her. Its just the kind of person he is. I don't think the words are "nice" versus "mean". Its just that he is more unselfish than I am.

I blame my dad for this. Obviously I could make a conscious effort to be more unselfish and I do to a certain extent--but only when it comes to my immediate family and close friends. My dad has made some "unselfish" decisions that have negatively impacted our family and I think in an attempt to make sure it doesn't happen to me I have gone the "opposite" direction. I just have to find a balance between being selfish and unselfish. I don't think its logical to be too much of either.

Oh well, my vacation was fun.

In other news, I need to decide which class to enroll in for the next session. I was thinking of taking two classes, but doing that this semester kicked my butt. I'm trying to decide between Economics (I remember taking this class back in SS1 in Nigeria) and Business Law (which is all about torts, contracts, and other legal jargon as relates to business.)

I need to take a class that will allow me to have a "laid back" semester. If I'm going to be moving, finding a new job, etcetera in the first quarter of 2011 I don't want to have a high stress class. Maybe Economics?